i will NOT lose...

ok...well ive been raised in church my whole life...my moms super in to church. and living with her i had no choice but to go...i know alot about what the bible says and what god wants us to do.but i never really listened; cuz i guess i wasnt ready to follow the "rules"...i was to busy having "FUN"...but when i was younger up until a couple months ago...i was soooo angry with my dad. my mom. bad relationships & just life itself....even with GOD at one point in time...i felt like i had nobody. nobody cared. and i just went cold. it was all about me. im not following nobodys rules.im not worrying about nobody. eff everybody & the world...i basically turned my back on god...i felt like even he didnt care...in my mind i was like...if god cared me and my dad would have a healthy relationship. my mom wouldnt be struggling the way she was. he wouldnt have taken away the closest ppl to me...blah blah blah but whats crazy was that even tho i turned my back on him. he never turned his on me...he was still protecting me. keeping me. and even speaking to me...one day i went to this youth service my friend invited me to...and the preacher was speaking to me. telling me what god wants me to do & the things i needed to do in order to..i guess you can say free of the pain and anger i was feeling...so i did it....& put GOD first COMPLETELY...not just saying it but doing it...and everything ive put my mind too has been successful...im happy all the time...& ive learned that while i was busy pleasing ppl...i shouldve been tryna please GOD...because in reality he's all that matters.....& life has just been AMAZING...

I realize now, that if i always have god on my side
iWIN =)