how im feeling...

these feelings are all to familiar

i don't know rather to except them & enjoy them
or
keep them to myself & keep my guard up !

we all know how it goes;
in the beginning he sweeps you off your feet
tells you everything you want to hear
takes you everywhere you've never been
does things you'd always hoped for...
& boom; your guards down
your falling in a deep "like"

at this time you know just how much
your feeling him. & your believing
everything he says; hoping he means it
but your always telling him; i don't believe you
ive heard that before...ETC
do we ever mean it ??
most of the time
NO; but its kind of our way of
trying to convince ourselves that
we arent falling..."FEAR"

this is the problem;
we allow FEAR to take over our thoughts
you begin the snooping
you begin doubting if he's doing what
he said he'd be doing
if he's with who he said he'd be with
we begin to compare him to
all our past pastssssss...
we begin to look for the problems

when you start looking; eventually you'll
find what your looking for...or you'll create
damage looking for something that's not there !

its better to have found love &
lost love than to have never loved at all...

life is not life at all
unless you experience every emotion
even PAiN....

love is something that cant be bought
love is 100% genuine
you cant duplicate it...
so give it freely & receive it the same
let things happen the way god intended
for them to happen. its going to go that
way anyways; so why not make it easier
on yourself by not trying to change things
that you cant change :)

i think im really talking to myself;
but i also hope you received something from it also
:)